Tinia,
it's not the additive but the representative you should worry about and it's not even that -- but something purely physical like eating that keeps you from the suffering you know to be life. forget the tea.

of course you will be overtaken by life and finally won't be apart from suffering but in the center of it which is the consolation of the dying and of those who grieve for the dead and can't be consoled.

we know that reading is action and that thought can carry us but we don't know where to go with our thinking.

more than others your body is formed by your thought. I should know, do know and remind you of it.

you have nowhere to go but the pleasure of this thinking. it is your duty and your sentence.

forget the tea and the additives. forget fiction and eat something. this is not a metaphor. you know how I feel about those. and about you.

Stell